AMAZING

It is a great to be healthy, a concept I took for granted in life up until now.   I feel like I could tackle anything now that the drugs are out of my system.  Okay I might still be restricted to 5 lbs and I have multiple wounds recovering from surgery but I really don’t even notice.  The fact that my energy is back and my active live cells are working again (hair, digestion, etc.) beats out everything else that is happening.  I wake up with full energy and a little soreness can’t even begin to bring me down.

I am back into the swing of life and have so much appreciation for this experience.  Last week I was back up on my feet after a successful final reconstruction surgery.  My mom helped me through and I was up and about the very next day on my way to recovery.  By Sunday I knew I was ready to move into my daily routine.  A few weeks back when I first returned to work in the office on my normal schedule I wasn’t quite ready.  I knew I had the surgery coming up and the additional check-ups I had to encounter really threw me off.  This time the schedule was clear and I could change my focus from cancer care to the other parts of life.  It all just clicked back into place on Monday and boy does it feel good!

Last Sunday I had another revelation – I beat cancer!  I know I have shared that I was cancer free previously but it hadn’t really registered.  Since I had tackled this like most things in my life I had been working through this disease with my treatment plan, checking off each step as we went…Surgery √ Chemotherapy √ and so on.  Now I am working through the hormonal treatments and onto prevention drugs all of which should have little to know impact on daily life.  And there it is – no more need for someone to come and take care of me.  I took my mom to the airport for the last time as a part of this process – and there it was my reality moment, we were done and the cancer is gone.  Unbelievable!  I cried more that evening than I had since the diagnosis.  I reflected on everything that had happened, most of which is under a fog, and it was one of the happiest moments in my life.

There was one additional piece of information I learned earlier that day which I know helped make that moment happen.  Last year on my house hunt I lost out on a house down the street in the offer process, coincidentally the woman who got the house was also diagnosed with cancer at the same time as me.  While I had previously learned she also had cancer, on Sunday I found out that she had passed away.  I couldn’t even fathom this and it stuck with me the entire day – this is a disease that kills.  Death was never an option for me, it really never came up and I didn’t think about it throughout my treatment.  This was a bump in the road and I am still going to live a long and fruitful life- cancer can’t kill me.  While this is my reality and I have been able to beat cancer, the truth is that it was possible, this scary disease can and does kill so many.  With that said I ask you to get your check-ups and do your self-breast exams- men and women!  Check out this site,  Breast Self Exam pick your day of the month and put it on the calendar.  I simple itch made me do a self-exam which saved my life.

I am enjoying each and everyday.  This weekend was full of friends and great food and I am happy knowing my biggest concern this week will not be about my health…I am back and I feel AMAZING!!

Fourth of July
I couldn’t be happier! Celebrating the 4th with friends in the sunshine.

One comment

  1. Your spirit is so encouraging! Take on the world girlfriend! You are clearly capable to handle anything that comes your way! Love you!!

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